“If the moon smiled she would resemble you.

You leave the same impression

Of something beautiful, but annihilating.”

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At the favorite midnight spot, rocking (or not) my new hair.

Change. How many are able to embrace change instantly?

Visiting the salon always excites me. There's a kind of suspense.

To err is human... even trusty Patrick might fail at times.

Whenever I snip off just a little hair I feel discontented.

I like the liberation of mega-change, snip snip snip away!

My netbook's webcam miraculously started working by the way:

The gaps? Very intentional haha.

Cutting hair is number 1 stress-relief activity.

:-[

“Soon he will eat your heart like cereals”

SUPPORT LOCAL!

爱一个人 没爱到难道就会怎麼样

有些事情 就不要拆穿

我没有说谎 是爱情说谎

它带你来 骗我说渴望的有可能有希望

是很感谢今晚的相伴

但我竟然有些不习惯

Everything comes to pass if we do not act on it.
Sometimes, just let it pass.

It is too tiring to make second guesses.
I need some distance.

Messed up with the right one,

now I'm falling for all the wrong stars.

I have already gone out of character, taken baby steps that surprise myself.

But there is only so much I would do.

It is now that I realize I don't know how to chase, seduce or even close the distance.

I am a complete carrot in front of him.

Therefore I am pulling all stops.

It is never good to lose access over your logical mind.

In life there were the boys I grew to like, and eventually love, reciprocally.

It feels different falling for someone first.

Growing emotional towards a person scares me.

I keep wondering if I will be fine when this ends.

I get this sad nudging thought: we cross paths but soon he'll be on his way.

It feels almost like... a short vacation of happiness.

Stay detached.

While at Starbucks as usual last night.... I received a whatsapp text.

Bestie said hello and pasted me a LMAO link.

http://fun.omy.sg/common/media/popup/?playlistPath=/global/media/Showbiz/MV%2BOnline/Story/OMYStory201204191214-328649&type=video&section=Showbiz&startIndex=1

 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!!

His MV is finally out--and with my ex coaches Hideaki and Estella!
Doubly excites.

I am forbidden from posting this on FB guess it's fine to share here sssshh.

Some of you have met him (hello nat) hehe you will probably find this bloodyyy amusing.

Laughter aside I think he did better than expected for a first-timer,
given that he is famous for being very 'woody' thumbs up clapclap!

p/s: Reaaally couldn't stop laughing within first minute of playing the video.

"I get goosebumps watching myself. So I haven't seen it."

And that's what he said hahahaha.

It's sad to find out.

Back from hiatus.

Last semester's 2 exam-heavy modules literally killed us.

Thick readers.... lecture notes... textbook. Survived though yipeeyay!

Just booked combined tutorial slots for the upcoming units

we're going to see new faces from the later batch this time, heh.

Crashed at Starbucks every night for a week into the papers. 11pm-6am no joke,

most were productive but uhhh oh it has cultivated into habit.

I was never able to study at home (for obvious reasons)

and anyway daytime's too bright, warm, noisy--to sum it up distracting.

Its worst now.

If you ring my doorbell in the day you'll probably only find me sleeping.

Maybe cranky singing. Haha.

Still it makes a whole world of difference to be taking subjects you love.

Sigh little more than half a year before graduation.

I don't want to rejoin the workforce along with all its politics and grown-up nonsense.

Rar goodnight.

You know how most girls are into the BFF-hype.

I had my last 'best friend' in primary three, and that was it.

Nothing dramatic happened. We drifted eventually.

It isn't because I haven't found good people in my life since then.

But as I grew up, I also grew up knowing not to count on forever.

Best, friend, forever.

Three separate words that I find (almost) impossible to define.

I am blessed with a handful of close ones, each too awesome to compare.

Sometimes though... I wish I had a duplicate of me.

She understands, never misunderstands.

She would be the best reflection of my good and bads,

a friend like no other and most importantly she'll stick with me forever.

No wonder I talk to myself in the nights. Haha.

Don't you wish you were your own best friend?

Many aspiring singers in Singapore but getting to know one,

and attend his performances as someone who appreciates a fucking good voice

it's amazing.

I watch them onstage doing the thing they love,

it's funny how we share the same motivations and dream...

there are the ones who chase and end up nowhere,

there are the ones who chase and ultimately succeed,

and there are those, who never dared to give much chase.

I think that's the worst. That's me.

I left you out inside my heart
How easily this could be the start

Coming to terms.

You're trying so hard to speak it pains me.

See you later 老Mm.

I will have no eyeliner on this time.

So I've decided to stay on Blogger, has served me well since 2006.

Yes Sir! Blue is the way to go. For now at least.

It is supposedly my lucky color. We shall see heh.

We were very excited to shop at Changi City Point though a little skeptical at first.

Its new, I like that you don't have to butt-knock with frenzy CNY shoppers.

You guys should check out that place sometime.

Mega buy from G2000!

Wish there was a better picture. Iphone has its limitations.

Should I jump on the Tumblr bandwagon?
But this space is where all my memories are stacked.
So maybe I'll just edit the template... starting to look too yellow.
Random entry yeah you know the serious part always comes after some rambling. ;b

Hahaha aw too cute
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Thats why 500 Days of Summer will always be my favorite movie.


HAPP(Y) MERR(Y) 2012 TO ALL!

Disappointment is an understatement.

Why am I so distracted??????!

:..\

Two days to submission, 3000-word essay untouched.

2500-word essay stuck at half.

If I were to complete in time I must be a genius!

Hahaha still can come here type type.

Theres still a TRUCKFUL of albums that hasn't seen the light of day.

Feb 2011 is ridiculously overdue.

Goodness gracious.

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One of the best weekends in a long while.

Times like these you know you can only count on family.

To breakaway from whatever disguise put on for the outside world,
to crumble and just be yourself--be afraid, flustered, be gloomy even....
not needing to struggle against the blues.
They will understand. If they can't, they accept you in spite of it all.

Although usually a big joker to us Daddypops isn't a person good with affection.
But lately I see that he has made my problem his problem.
He's starting to listen, instead of just providing solutions.
Digging through a colorful archive of life stories
he's like a careful doctor injecting positivity into every part of my being.
I see how far he'd go. I see how much he wants me to lose that frown.

During our early morning walk at Botanic Gardens
pacing step by step he said this:

"Everyone's darkest hour lasts no longer than 60 minutes.

As of today I haven't found it in me to express xo freely
(Pops hinted the other time he'd appreciate hugs from us so cute!)
but I love you very much. Thankyous' never enough.

I am Sunshine because my father is The Sun.

The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part(I)

What makes someone beautiful?

Never Say Never.
I believe in the above, and not because its title of a Justin Bieber movie. 

Haha though yesss I adore the boy.

Never Back Down.

Coincidentally title of another movie.

But I refuse to take the 'never back down' approach.

As much as we can insist, and persist in an attitude or task,

there comes a time we all need to check ourselves.

Otherwise life becomes a more difficult journey than necessary.

Thats what I think so yeah.

We shouldn't confuse the two.

"Make Love, Not War"

But war doesn't only exist between nations;
sometimes a lifelong struggle within the family... amongst best friends.
The scariest being when war lies within yourself.

"Make Love, Not War"
This is how people learn to get back on their feet right?
Hence my current windows wallpaper.
I need some time alone.
Wait for me, if you're my loved one. (:

Goodnight funny world.

 

Pick-up hello. Not Throw-up bye bye.

He's such a gem I hate to lose, yet incapable of holding.

___


Life has taken its toll on me.

I wish I could write about happier things but to be honest 

such immense discomfort and worrying thoughts are lethal when combined.

And somehow or rather, Im the only one to blame.

Coming clean.

For a good half year I indulged in alcohol every weekend,

a package deal of late nights and crashing after sunrise.

The routine was addictive with awesome friends.

At that point of time, no telltale signs that my body struggled to keep up.

It is true. Tons of people enjoy a havoc lifestyle with no serious consequences.

Hell, I don't even smoke nor drink excessively. So why me?

There's no asking why. Some are blessed, some more unfortunate.

I just happen to be the latter.

It is unimaginably frightening.

Because I can do without a lot of things but no, not my sight.

Even the slightest possibility pulls me into worry-wart mode.
We take for granted. We panic way too late.

Anyway Im alright friends, will definitely keep the faith going.

Over the past year I've learnt to complain less.
You fuss about a problem and the problem seems to multiply.
Gotten to the point where I might disappear for a bit to compose myself, by myself.
Hahahaha does it make any sense?
Im thankful for every one of your texts, shall say it again--I love yall.
To Bbam especially in spite of my cowardly move
still you're trying your best to be here for me.
From the very start (slurry/nonsensical/always gettin into silly fixes haha)
giving "developed" advice whenever Im a helpless state of mind.
Thank you thank you thank you. :]


And here's what I have to push me the extra mile:

The Devil has put a penalty on all things we enjoy in life.
Either we suffer in health or we suffer in soul, or we get fat.
Albert Einstein

The health of the eye seems to demand a horizon.

"Faith is taking the first step when you don't see the whole staircase."

I want her hair, the length of curls just right!

But hmmmm.... what if it makes me look like a kid?!

HOW NOW BROWN COW. (TBG's current phrase haha)

Look at how much Meatball (left, obviously :b) has grown!

Hahahaha they're so dam cute just the photo makes me grin from ear-to-ear.

RIP

Home from impromptu Real Steel showing!

Ran 4 km today (gym feels awesome after such a long hiatus)

and a good movie makes the night even better.

So Punkie and I took a quick shower before driving out.

Yay big fans of chillax dates we were both in....

Hoodies! And Im gonna buy me more comfort wear, heh.

Anyway as if Hugh Jackman and Dakota Goyo (kid star) didn't already rock the screen,

the movie's soundtrack is equally dope. Mega badass!!

When I first saw the trailer--"ohmy gosh. isn't that Till I Collapse"
One of Eminem's earlier songs (2002 thats like, 9 years ago yeaaaah)

cus back then I was totally hooked on it.

Till the roof comes off
Till the lights go out
Till my legs give out
Can't shut my mouth
Till the smoke clears out
And my high burns out
Imma rip these shit
Till my bones collapse

hahaha now you know I grew up an angsty teen.

Sometimes.

7 hours and 7000 miles away

My paternal grandmother passed on yesterday.

Semi-conscious for almost half a year and physically unresponsive,

Im actually glad her pain's now relieved.

Surely it isn't comfortable to be put on a drip that long.

Daddypops seems fine.

They have known for some time nothing can be done.

Goodbye Novena-Ahma.

"Studies have proven that listening to music strengthens the right-hemisphere of the brain.
It literally changes the structure.

Those same studies have found that people who listen to music are generally smarter

and have more emotional intelligence than those who don’t."

For real? I spend at least 2 hours on music everyday!

Haha then again, people who listen to a lot of music are rather um, eccentric.

Remember saying I'll post this but never did.
My favorite electric guitarist.

'Formal' message. From him its cutest--I swear cutest ever.
Reading it makes my heart melt.
But it also makes my eyes tingle with sadness.
This, is exactly why I've come to like you
so much so myself found it hard to believe.

Really one of a kind.
I'll definitely miss you.
I know it because you're still here and I feel that lil tug.

Gee, more than a month since I last logged in.

Been busier than usual with this semester's Digital Media unit--

creating a video portrait from scratch.

All the filming and editing slots took up the weekends... 

but still I had to party to balance out the stress.

So life has been two extremes; you find me either at school or in the club.

Ha ha ha.

I need to quit procrastinating and pen down one million thoughts.

My Aquarian head is burstg from the one million thoughts.

I have been very happy with recent company.

Despite seeing the same faces almost every Friday and Saturday,

I enjoy moments of sprightly zest right down to the comedic suppers.

As the end of Sept nears, this bunch of awesome people will be gone

and I guess we gotta deal.

I-I love you like a love song baby
And I keep it in re-pe-pe-peat

Helluva catchy!

DC paper was better than expected. 

Tomorrow's dedicated to report and Saturday--Saturday is PLAY.

0400, Im tryna digest the Asam flavored maggi.

Stomach on fire.
Hmmmmmmm.
 

Whazzup folks.
I wonder who still checks this space... to you reading,
hurhur, thanks for having faith!

0349, just had a last dose of coffee.
(I don't usually take coffee but it works like drug to keep me awake.
A must-drink for long nights.)

Been sleeping at 6AM to catch up, complete assignments on time bla.

Final exam this Thu--Debating Comms.
Hooray 'cause we received an extension--Report to a Client Mon 27 Jun!

Shall rush it by Friday anyway.

Need the weekend to let loose, going mad from theories in my head.

重点：

I PROMISE TO UPLOAD ALL THE OVERDUE VIZUALS.

From February. Massive flood of faces.

I PROMISE TO UPLOAD ALL THE OVERDUE VIZUALS.

Will be back after uh, alls done with this semester okay?

Which is very very, very soon. Cannot wait.

Alright enough.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything

Collaboration by fave Youtube artistes. / P.o.r as I mug.
Christina Grimmie's voice has soo much character while Sam Tsui is sigh.
The epitome of my ideal:

☺ White

♯ Charismatic

☼ Awesome Smile

♫ Talent

♥ Sophisticated Boyish

√ All Checked.

Hahaha fine I coined the term "sophisticated-boyish". Yknow what I mean.

NO MORE PARTYING TILL JULY.
Reports, gym and chillack days... Yippedoo!

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BIEBER FEVER?

I saw him today - what timing and coincidence.

Fate works like magic. True story.

Yes I have remnants of love left. There's nothing to hide.

But to move on was never about accepting someone new.

It is for me, envisioning his happiness.
And Im almost near.

Be smiling again in the morning.
Thank you angels.

The things I do to myself.

Sometimes, being ahead of the game you know what hurts.

You know what not to click. Still it doesn't stop you. 

Thank God the drinks last night has me feeling a little numb today.

I should be alright and I really am.

This - is just an uneasy tug from within.

Down with mad cough/throat for almost a month.

Unable to sing (helllll that sucked), gym or even focus in class. 

Now all the med's done but sickness isn't.

And the room seems to be closing in on me.

Shall go take a jog.

Teeheh REFRESH CAROL!